Love you forever

I am going to miss Chris when he leaves me today but I have realized he is not the one I love and I need to let him go. He was the first one I loved with a love stronger than any. But I hurt him and he hurt me. I have been going out with a great guy Zechariah Thomas Konz for four months as of January 17 and I have been to blinded by Chris coming back into my life to realize how much I love Zechariah and how much he means to me. I know my parents think it is stupid and naive but to me its real. The love is real, the pain is real, the fights and the stupid arguments are real. To me it is love, I love him with all my heart and I could honestly say, without being a stupid love drunk teenager, I would give my life for him and do anything for him, just to see him alive, happy, and with a smile on his face. I usually tend to be too clingy and too emotional but it is because my feelings of love are more than a teenage girls should be. I want to be with Zechariah for the rest of my life and he is the man I want to marry and the man I want to die with, knowing he loved me more than anyone. I think I am going to tell him to make a blog tomorrow so he can read all this and make his own posts. Either way I want him to know I love him more than anything in the world.

I just got off the xbox and finished talking to Chris. We played about 3 good games in Black Ops but half the time I was on there I was waiting on him to play. Zack still doesn't talk to me much and I don't know what to do, I love him more than my own life and I don't want to let him go. He used to be so interested in me and to him I was the world, but now I am just a girl in the background. I think I want to start making some YouTube video's like one of my favorites Jessie but I might be a little to lazy for that. Maybe I can get some tips from Jessie on twitter but she usually doesnt respond to my posts :(

To early to know what to blog

Well I couldn't stay asleep past six and just came down stairs after watching some American Dad. Right now I am watching Phineas and Pherb and I just ate some bread that made me feel like I was going to have a heart attack. Does that ever happen to you. Right now I need some help. I am going out with a really sweet guy Zechariah Thomas Konz and I love him a lot, but lately all he wants to do is talk to his friends and it's like I don't even exist. And I have been hanging out with my ex boyfriend Chris because he is the only one that talks to me anymore. I am getting griped at by Zack but he doesn't talk to me so what am I supposed to do? I also think I am still very in love with Chris and the more Zack pushes me away the more I run to Chris. I love Zack but he is pushing me away and more toward Chris. What do I do?

Goodnight World

I think its finally time to go to bed after a long day of being lazy. I have to go to sleep so I can get up and play more brain washing, mind blowing video games and talk to my friends and Chris tomorrow. I will try to post more tomorrow. Hope we get more snow! Goodnight moon and goodnight world, hope you all had a good day and have a good nights sleep :)

SNOW DAY!!!!!

Got six inches of snow last night, lovely snow day! Spent all day on xbox live talking to my best friend  "guy I love" Chris West, did some video chatting with him :) Sitting at the computer while my parents watch some movie, sippin' some ice tea with to much sugar and wondering what I am going to do when Chris loses his live next Sunday and why people love when it is only going to slip away from you before you have the chance to cherish it. <3 you Chris